I began my walk with the Lord a few years ago. I was hungry and thirsty for something, but until then my hunger had been fed with worldly things. The wickedness, the alcohol, the good times out partying and men showing me affection. Yet, there was something lacking. Something in me that wanted more, I just didn't know what. I have always believed in Jesus. I grew up in a Catholic church attending with my family, but never had a personal relationship with Him. I didn't know what having a personal relationship was. I hit rock bottom. I was diagnosed with depression. I was taking pills to "heal me". I was seeing a counselor, but it didn't seem to work for me. I was running out of hope. My daily prayer was Lord, please do not let me live another day. BUT God, gave me life and a new beginning. He healed my depression and gave me hope.
Jesus has changed me. I have a long way to go, but thank God I am not where I used to be. I am not perfect and never will be. I know I am loved and created in His image. I know He loves me. I know he has given me an opportunity to actually live my life and enjoy it.
I will be honest, I can't say it has been all rainbows and unicorns since I was born again. But I can say that since I was saved, I have this peace. "Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7. The enemy will come at you as soon as you give your life to the Lord. His purpose is to steal, kill and destroy. Life is not fair, it will not be. But we have our God, our rock, our refuge, our strength. "For when I am weak, then I am strong." Strong in Him not in us. I know that I want to be obedient to the Lord and no matter what the enemy tries to do, I will not surrender. I will not die. I will overcome with my God by my side. If God is for us, who can be against us.
